DH has been impossible this morning. He claims that he asked twice yesterday evening to drive the Mercury to a sleep study appointment. Initially I had planned to do some shopping while he was "sleeping", but decided to do something else instead. I do not remember him asking for the car at all.
Is he delusional? Is he lying? I don't know, but the day started off with a bang when he got home and started yelling.
I am at work now. I want to run away from home. I don't want to do this any more. I want a day of peace and quiet where I can do the things that need to be done without him constantly yelling, nagging or making disparaging comments.
How am I supposed to hold down a full time job and do things around the house with this kind of atmosphere? I have my own health problems and when they flare up is the time DH always acts the worse. It is like he has to have the attention while I am the one who needs the peace. I wish my mother was still alive. I could cry on her shoulder for hours right now.
Have you ever wanted to do something but you didn't have the proper tools for the project? Last night I wanted to paint the inside of the hall closet. I am in the process of changing it from a clothes closet to a pantry. I found the paint. I had old newspapers to cover the floor. All I could find was a 1" paint brush. Do you have any idea how long it takes to paint the three walls of a 36X24 closet? I was at the task for almost three hours. The wallboard had never been painted since the house was built and soaked up so much paint that you could hear it sighing with relief. This morning it looks good. But to have the pleasure of a task done well was taken from me by a man who only cares about his self and it is destroying me.
I have no support group; no friends who care about me and the rest of my family is totally in denial. Now where do I go?
Please pray for me. I really need it bad. Thank you, K
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